Sometimes I get frustrated that the only thing I can do for Ryan is put new flowers on his grave or buy some trinket that I put there until its picked up by the cemetery. But the last years I have tried to do something positive on his birthday. This past birthday I took some new clothing, socks & underwear to a men’s shelter. I try to do something positive that helps others in his name. If you have some ideas let me know. I am always looking for outlets.